Poetry by Marcella (Mar-C) Dublin
The Inner Cries of a Woman
Words won’t do
With all she is itching to say
She does not speak
Instead she paints her reality on canvas
Because the knots around her tongue squeeze
And she is haunted by not knowing
What exactly she feels
So like Dax her wish is to live in her dreams
Even with legions of demons just lurking
To rush in when the veil is drawn
And the weight of her thoughts
Reminds her of how lonely it gets
Climbing mountains alone
She fights wars within herself she may not win
Against every emotion there is
To end cycles while lifting bars incessantly
As she tries to reinvent herself
From gyves of the past and the sneers
Of those threaten by her will
Yet she chooses to scorch her own heart
By not burning their ears
With the pain that lives in her voice
And instead of letting it all out she keeps it all in
For the old slave mill
Though slowly continues to spin
Silhouetted against her own inner light
Still black and featureless she is
Though it feels like she has lost her mind
With so much to say but none to fathom
She does not speak
For unlike what it seems she is numb and crippled within
I Wasn’t Always Like This
I wasn’t always like this you know
I was kind and optimistic
I saw the world in colors
You see I wasn’t always like this
I wasn’t always like this
I went above and beyond my duty to help others
You see,
Silly, selfless girl I used to be
I wasn’t always like this
I smiled often, and laughed a lot
Everyone loved me you know
Well that’s what I once believed
You see, I wasn’t always like this you know
I continued to give him my best
In exchange for random “I miss you” text
Damn him! One mistake and he didn’t hesitate. He left!
I wasn’t always like this
I loved to sing, while sitting idly in the park
And scream from the top of my lungs
My life was filled with fun you see
I wasn’t always like this
I once dreamt and believed
I knew how to enjoy my today’s and look forward for
my tomorrow’s
With a graceful contentment
I wasn’t always like this
I was bubbling with passion
Because I was convinced that men could be awaken
But fear is much more powerful than love, you know
I wasn’t always like this
Running away from life
Welcoming whatever will shield me from what is to
come next
You see, I wasn’t always like this